let go of everything. don't hold on to them anymore. it's freedom. it's a relief.

stressed over my fyp. there's so many things that i have to do. i have to start writing my report but before that, i have to sort out all my data and analyse my results. oh dear, i'm so lazy to start this. i'm trying to steal each second and minute to slack and be lazy. hoping to give myself some time to relaz and destress. i'm constantly looking for breaks. always looking out for days when i can just do nothing n rot at home. i'm just too tired. i need a break.

been thinking about it for the past few days. the more i think, the more i want to clarify things. i feel like im being tied down all this while. to something so dead, no life, no soul. i don't see the light. there's nothing in front. there's no way. it's a dead end.. don't you understand? i'm troubled over how to send my message across clearly. i want a clear-cut way. a way that will make you understand completely. i'm such a loser. can't even make myself clear. i don't understand why. it's time to move on, for you too. yes. please don't live in the past. i will not give even the slightest chance to revive the past. there's nothing. it's really empty inside me. i'm telling the truth. please understand this. please, let me go.

you know what i will say. give up. don't escape from the reality. reality is cruel, i know. but if you don't, you r being cruel to me. that's not the way. i don't want to be tied down anymore. you know, it's hard for me too. i love freedom. please allow me to. if you r able to put down everything, put down the past, i will still be your fren. i promise, n that is if you r also willing to.